“But God; rich in mercy, You came to save me..”

“But God; rich in mercy, You came to save me..”

“I don’t want the world to define God for me. I want the Holy Spirit to reveal Him to me.”

I came across this quote while I was scrolling Pinterest for some inspiration. To be perfectly honest with you, I’ve had such a struggle about what to write about this month. I feel God speaking so loud to me in so many areas of life and I can see His hand moving so much! But, when I sat down to write, my mind is just blank. Granted, there are many topics I could write about…but I don’t know, it just seemed harder this time.

If I were solely writing about my testimony and where God has brought me from, I could write for days and days. I could tell you of how I became a mama at 15 after having sex just once (I am living proof that it can absolutely happen the very first time), I could tell you of how I was married, had two babies, moved to North Carolina and back, got divorced, and became a single mom-all by 19. I could tell you of all the times I attempted to use alcohol and men to put a band-aid on what I thought I was “fixing.” I could tell you of how I was so broke, I had to trade what was left on a food stamp card at the end of the month to my mom for cash to put gas in my car just to make it to work-and even sometimes then I still came up short. I could tell you of the time I parked my car on the side of the WK and contemplated if this life I was “living” was even worth it. I was in a very dark place. Keyword here is “was.” I could tell you that I met a guy (who’s been my husband for almost six years now) and he helped me put back pieces of myself that I didn’t even realize were broken. I could tell you of the heavy scars, trust issues, and baggage that I carried into our marriage. I could go on and on; I could keep you in this state of brokenness, guilt, shame, feeling unloveable, and this overwhelming feeling of hopelessness. And quite frankly, that’s the only place the enemy wants you and me to believe we’ll ever be. But I’ve got good news, friend.

“But God; rich in mercy, You came to save me..”

You see, if I didn’t have a praying mama, if I had given up when I truly thought all hope was lost, if I had believed the lies whispered to me by the enemy-I wouldn’t be able to tell you about a man named Jesus. I wouldn’t be able to tell you that He completely redeemed my past. I wouldn’t be able to tell you that He healed me of my brokenness. I wouldn’t be able to tell you that He not only saved me, but He saved those two babies I was talking about too. I wouldn’t be able to tell you that He gave me peace in my thoughts. I wouldn’t be able to tell you He lifted that burden of shame off me and sent it back to hell where it belongs. I wouldn’t be able to tell you of the overwhelming grace that He washes over me. I wouldn’t be able to tell you of the freedom that comes with knowing Him. If I hadn’t walked through the valley for so long, I’d have no earthly idea the warrior I could become IN HIM. Something is key here that I need you to understand-I did not walk this out because I am strong or capable. I was able to walk this out because my strength is IN HIM. My hope is IN HIM. I’m put back together IN HIM. My peace is IN HIM. My healing is IN HIM. My grace is IN HIM. My forgiveness is IN HIM. My victory is IN HIM. (Please excuse me while I take a praise break…)

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When I look back over my life, it overwhelms me to think I’ve made it through what I have. And not even that I just made it through it, but that I’m thriving this side of it. When I talk about it, it’s like I’m telling a story like it happened to someone else. The enemy didn’t snuff me out; although he has tried many, many times. The enemy wants your future, he wants your marriage, he wants your children, he wants your peace, he wants to destroy every single good thing God has for you. It’s time to get up, dust yourself off, and tell him to get behind you-IN JESUS NAME. Stop believing his lies and trust the one who created you! You are never too far gone, you ARE worthy, and you will never ever be broken beyond repair. Jesus absolutely loves you and wants nothing more than for you to love Him too.

“I don’t want the world to define God for me. I want the Holy Spirit to reveal Him to me.”

While the world tries to tell me that Jesus couldn’t possibly use me to speak His truths because of my past-Jesus said, “I’ve already paid for it. It’s done.” While the world tries to keep Jesus in a box, He’s showing me He is King of the world now and forevermore. While the world gives me a list of rules and tells me, as a Christian, the things I can and cannot do-Jesus said, “who the Son sets free, is free indeed.” I’m past the point of taking someone else’s word or opinion about who Jesus is. I’m choosing to believe what the Holy Spirit is revealing to me about this good, good Father through His Word and communicating with Him in prayer. Will you?

How can I pray for you this week? I mean that sincerely and if your prayers are too personal to comment or you don’t even know who this Jesus is or what to say to Him-please don’t hesitate to DM me. The Word says that where two or more are gathered in His Name, He’s there too. Let’s agree together, in His Name

-Hannah

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